Monday, December 08, 2003

Complete and total writer's block...

Okay, so it is now day four or five of complete writer's block. How can it be so incredibly difficult to write about a subject that I care so much about...a topic which I am considering a career advocating? As much as I love ASP, this last paper is absolutely killing me mentally. Thanks to the brilliance of my friends here (Mike, Aaron, Rebecca, etc.) I at least have a bit of a direction now...

So, anyway. God is so completely amazing! Today I saw the President for the third time, and all of these times happened within a month! My boss, Former Speaker of the House of Representatives Newt Gingrich, was so thrilled after President Bush signed the Medicare legislation that he took all of us out to lunch. I had lunch with Newt Gingrich. I still am so amazed at the opportunities that have come through working for him. (http://www.newt.org)

I am beginning to be even more emotional than last week...tonight I talked to my "Pennsylvania Dad" (Tom) and I realized that in 4 days I will have to say goodbye to him and Leann (my Pennsylvania Mom)...for who knows how long. Friday and Saturday I will have to say goodbye to 40 people, all of which I have grown to love and respect this semester. I hate goodbyes! Honestly, I know that it is time to move on, time to return to California...but still, when I invest in people it makes it increasingly difficult to say goodbye and to leave them. I think that this will be a week of many tears! To add to all this, God has always given me the "gift" (if you can call it that) to feel other's pain and to help them through it to the best of my ability. There is so much pain and heartache in the lives of my dear friends right now! I wish more than anything that I could just take it away...but the only thing I can do is encourage them, be there for them, and love them.

Well, I must make a point to thoroughly enjoy each and every day in Washington, and each and every moment with these dear friends here at ASP and at the Gingrich Group so that I will not have regrets once I return to school. I also must take many pictures :) That has never been a problem with me.

Thanks to all my wonderful ASP friends. It has been such a joy, a blessing, a learning experience to work and talk with all of you. I will especially never forget apartment 1, LOL. So many great adventures. You all have left a mark that will forever remain on my heart. Thank you for your friendship, for your listening ears and wise advice...for your laughter and tears. I love you all!

My favorite passage of scripture, that always reminds me that God is God, and I am human, and that He knows far better than me what should happen in my life:

"'To whom will you compare me? Or who is my equal?' says the Holy One. Lift your eyes and look to the heavens: who created all these? He who brings out the starry host one by one, and calls them each by name. Because of his great power and mighty strength, not one of them is missing. Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, 'My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God'? Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint."
--Isaiah 40:25-31