Friday, February 17, 2006

Life in Glendora...

I miss my friends...after graduation, all but 2 of my friends moved elsewhere. Many are married now. Life is so different. And I am beginning to wonder how I am going to establish new friendships here in Glendora--because everyone I know seems to fit into one of these categories:

(1)--my friends from APU (who will move away or already have)...my friends who are still so dear to me, and with whom I share so many memories. I miss our late night talks, our fun and crazy adventures, our incredibly deep and close friendships, etc. Granted, two of them still live in Covina, but our schedules are so different that it makes it really hard to hang out.

(2)--people my age at church. They have all lived in this area their whole lives (as far as I know) and they have their established groups of friends. We hang out occasionally, but I kinda feel like I'm just a friend "on the side"...

(3)--people I hang out with, go camping with, etc....I am beginning to wonder if they merely tolerate my presence, or if they really want me around. I truly love these people, and we have a great time...but I can't seem to establish deeper friendships with some of them and it hurts. I don't know what to do--back off, keep things the same, etc...I am sometimes afraid that they are different people to my face than they are behind my back. I know that sounds bad--and I don't mean it that way. I don't think that they are like the girls on "Mean Girls"--I am just honestly wondering what they think about the "kid" who hangs out with them.

(4)--people that I know only through blogs. I would LOVE to meet some of the people that I communicate with through blogs and through reading theirs. I don't know if it would be weird to meet someone under those circumstances, but I have "met" some incredible people through blogs lately, and I think that there are some promising friendships around the corner. :)

I know this sounds like a pity party, but believe me, it's not. I am just realizing that I don't know where I'm going to meet people down here. I'm not in college anymore, there aren't many people my age at church...maybe I'll meet some people at work, but who knows.

I need to investigate some college/young adult groups at some of the big churches around here. I love friends...I love having deep conversations...and I love learning about other people and hearing about their lives. But right now, I really feel that I am lacking in these areas, and I want to solve that problem.

Any suggestions would be gladly welcomed!!