Saturday, January 17, 2004

Thoughts...

Well, today I had set aside as a study day...I was going to do all the reading for Tuesday...I was going to write my paper that is due on Thursday...but...God gave us such a beautiful day!! 72 degrees, sunny...so I...well, let's just say that the apartment is clean, and my heart is filled with joy from talking to so many people today on the phone (unlimited weekends!!)...and still my books sit here, staring at me...oh well! My good friend Aaron from ASP is coming to see me tonight, and he is definitely more important than reading about Medieval Europe! :) Also, my roommate from my freshman and half of my sophomore year, Allison, is going to visit tonight while she is in town from Colorado...that takes precedence over studying (I know what Mike is going to say about my excuses!!)...

God has filled my life with so much joy, even through the suffering and trials He has allowed me to undergo in the past 5-6 years...but I have realized just how much I have to be thankful for! My hand has recovered about 85%, so I am able to use it--which is a total blessing...a year ago I could not move my hand, much less play piano or write...now I can do all these things and more...I have been blessed with absolutely unforgettable and amazing friends, such as Stephanie, Mike, Aaron, Jason, Dan, Nate, Larry, Alli, Katie (basically everyone from ASP!!), Sara, Leslie and Jessica...and these friends love me because of my uniqueness, not inspite of it. :) God has blessed me with this university, which I do love despite my problems returning and transitioning...It makes all the trails and hard times well worth it!

I have a dear friend who is really hurting right now...the pain does not seem to end, but only seems to grow stronger...I am so concerned for this friend of mine, as I feel that the pain may be leading into a type of depression...And it pains me so to know that I cannot do anything to take the pain and suffering away...I want to offer some encouragement, and all I really can say is this: Friend, allow God to take away the pain...He died on the cross so that He could live through you, and if we surrender our hurts and "cast our cares" (I Peter 5:7) upon Him, He will sustain us...I Peter 1:22 tells us to "love one another deeply, from the heart." Friend, I cannot tell you how much I care for you, how much your friendship means to me...you are an amazing individual, so full of life and knowledge...so full of compassion and love...I am praying for you, by the hour, and often more than that...and I pray that you will find your hope and strength in the Lord Jesus, because He wants to take our yoke and to give us His ("Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." --Matthew 11:28-30). Friend, you know who you are, and I pray that you will seek the Lord with all your heart, because it is then that you will find Him (Jeremiah 29:13)...I am ALWAYS here for you, even if I am not physically close to you.

Tomorrow will be another wonderful day...I will get to teach Sunday school again, to my junior-highers...I will be able to hear and see how they have grown since I saw them last...I will be able to worship my Lord and Savior...tomorrow night my fellow youth leaders are taking me out, to welcome me back, and I know that we are going to the Bonaventure, in downtown LA, to the rotating cocktail lounge...it is such a great place! They took me there in May, before I left for Pennsylvania, and it was such a beautiful view..great place...I am excited! Then I am going with Stephanie to her house to spend the night and spend my day off with her family. Good times!!

Anyway, thanks for reading...please pray for my friend...pray for peace, for guidance, for sustenance, and for God's love to surround and fill my friend's heart...:)